Courage doesn’t always roar.

“Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, “I will try again tomorrow.”  I saw this on Twitter last night. I know, right?  Twitter was all meta-physical moonbeams and wisdom and junk.

I think it was just what I needed.

It’s goes well with my other mantra.

Is it possible to leave all the baggage of the day behind once we close our eyes and fall asleep? To wake each day, dismissing the gloom of the previous day and start anew?  I try. Which is to say, yes, yesterday was a rough day, but today is different and could prove better than its predecessor.

Or not.

It’s all about the numbers. Every 6 hours they draw blood. About every 3rd draw his numbers bottom-out. Then they address deficits and overages, making him look healthy , normal, acceptable by the 4th draw. Then the day starts anew and his numbers start to sway until 3rd draw shouts the discrepancies and we start all over again.

Today’s sucker-punch came with the adenovirus count at 2.2 million. That’s right, it’s climbing back in the wrong direction. I can only imagine all these nasty viral storm-troopers marching through his body, wrecking havoc as they go.


Today wasn’t a great day.

I will try again tomorrow.

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15 thoughts on “Courage doesn’t always roar.

  1. Believe it or not, I actually have that quote on my fridge. It’s one of my favorites. It’s always reminded me that sometimes it’s the best I can do: take a deep breath, pray for grace and one more chance.
    Tomorrow is another day. Love you dear.

  2. Stay strong hun! Things r crazy now that’s for sure but your a strong woman and I think about u often through the day! I wish I had a magic wand to make it all go away so u could hold your beautiful baby boy and all the kids wouldn’t have to go through so much! Just remember I pray for u and your always on my mind and in my heart hun! God Bless David, such a sweet little boy!! ❤

  3. Wendy

    Keeping you in my prayers.

  4. Jennifer Krumins

    You and your family are being held in our prayers Amy. I am one of many that you don’t know, that are asking for a miracle. God bless you and your beautiful boy. Your suffering is making a lot of people “grow up” just a bit when we start stressing about stupid daily stuff that does not matter at all.

  5. Tonya Fisher

    Hang in there Amy. I am still praying you through. Be strong. New day tomorrow, indeed. 😉 lots of hugs to you.

  6. sharon

    But he’s still holding on, he’s one tough little boy – just like his Mama. Here’s another quiet voice hoping for a kinder tomorrow.


  7. My cousin just relapsed with Leukemia for the 5th time. He’s nine. Another treatment. Another bout. Another one of those DYING feelings in your stomach. I’ve been following you on twitter, but just now read your blog. Oh, friend, I am thinking of you.

  8. My all time favorite quote is “The only courage that matters is the kind that gets you from one moment to the next” -Mingnon McLaughlin. Wishing you strength and courage and sending you love and light.

  9. One of my favorite Scripture verses that I hold onto during the storms of life is Proverbs 3:5-6–“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct your path.” Our paths on this earth are rough and steep; our understanding is so limited, but there is a God who understands our greatest fears and holds us up during our weakest moments. You are daily in my prayers.

  10. Prayers, my new friend; you are all in my prayers. People think it’s the heroic acts that prove courage, but real miracles come from everyday courage too. Stay courageous!

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  12. We’re still praying here. And getting mobilized to donate blood. Miracles. I’m praying for miracles. And peace, and comfort, and maybe that bottle of wine you’ll eventually drink should be a case. For celebrating and washing away this nightmare. Praying, praying, praying.

  13. Found you through the weeman. Sending all my positive thoughts your way. Hoping.

  14. Libby

    When life gets you down and the problems you face
    are certainly more than your share..
    …When you run out of strength and you want to give up
    because it’s just too much to bear…

    I want to remind you, my precious friend,
    that you have what it takes inside…
    extraordinary courage that may not ROAR
    but it doesn’t cower and hide.

    It’s the quiet voice inside you that says,
    “Tomorrow I’ll try again.”
    It’s the courage to keep on going…
    to see things through to the end.

    You are not defined by this moment in time,
    You are not what has happened to you.
    It’s the way that you choose to respond that matters
    and what you decide to do.

    Courage is not the absence of fear,
    but a powerful choice we make.
    It’s the choice to move forward with a PURPOSE and joy,
    regardless of what it takes.

    It’s the courage that’s found in ordinary children
    who are HEROES in their own way…
    exhibiting strength and fortitude
    in life’s challenges every day…

    Valiant kids of exceptional courage
    with enduring power to cope…
    taking each problem one day at a time
    and never giving up HOPE.

    These brave-hearted kids have great resilience
    and they lift each other as well…
    bonded by a common understanding
    each with a story to tell.

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