Where’s John Coffey when you need him?

Strange things tend to pop into my head.

The other day, John Coffey appeared in my over-loaded noggin and all I wanted to do was watch the movie. Silly, right? It was that single-minded apparition that caused me to venture to Netflix. I rather expected the movie giant should would have this older movie available to watch online. Nope. You had to order the DVD and wait. Since I’m not home – I was going to be waiting a long time. So I turned to iTunes.

For $9.99 of my precious iTunes gift card that I’d been hoarding since Christmas, I now own a digital version of The Green Mile. I’m not usually so extravagant for digital movies, but hey, sometimes that’s what a gift is all about – something you wouldn’t normally get for yourself.

I’m sure you’re wondering why I was suddenly obsessed by this fictional character. Think about it – wouldn’t it be awesome for some big strapping guy to walk into our room and breathe all of the bad stuff out of Capt Snuggles?

Hell, maybe just the big strapping guy? (oh, my bad, that’s another post entirely….)


I think that it just goes back to all the talk about Omnipotent beings and miracles and prayers shifting the universe. And maybe the real desire for something dramatic to happen in the course of David’s care. Something dramatic to the good, please. We’ve had enough dramatic to the not so good.

Don’t get me wrong, we’ve had good – adenovirus count yesterday was 53,000. Yet, something still made me stop and not brag about it to the world.

Because we’ve also had plenty of not so good.

Take, for example, the major GI bleeding that started late yesterday and continued through today. So much bleeding that he needed platelets x 6, blood transfusion x 2, plasma and cryo.

And his adenovirus count for today? 301,000.

Definitely, not so good.

So much for getting through a relatively quiet week unscathed. Is it really too much to ask for the roller coaster to stop? Can’t I put in a request to stop losing a foot for every inch of ground gained?


Maybe adding John Coffey to the long list of Omnipotent beings, universe shifting prayers and miracles isn’t such a bad idea.

It certainly can’t hurt.

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13 thoughts on “Where’s John Coffey when you need him?

  1. Keep the faith, hun, as hard as that may be. Where there is life, a dedicated medical team, and many, many people sending positive healing energy in the direction of you and David, there is hope.
    My thoughts are with you always.

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  3. still praying for your little one and your entire family

  4. I am thinking about you and your lil guy. Sending you some strength, love and some major hugs!

  5. I have prayer warriors on task, just because there is a lot of the unknown that goes on and on. I kinda like the vision of a big strapping guy idea. I am happily married, but I am not dead either. It is ok for everyone to have visions of what may indeed be greener on the other side, doesn’t necessarily mean it is. I envision many great things and want that certain desire – but, would it change the way I am today? You are certainly a strong woman, just for going through this twice (heck, the odds are way low for going through it once, but twice even lower, three times almost hard to believe and then to be hit a fourth time is nearly unheard of) so visioning the escape route even for a few hours is honorable. I believe the “Gift” had a lot more meaning that what was written here. You were given a “Gift” and you ran with it. Don’t be upset – relish in the “big strapping man” and be all you can be when you need to be. No one expects anything different, you are human and going through this for the fourth time, in what 6 – 9 years? you deserved that “gift”, I only wish I had been there to enjoy it with you.

    Let some other people do a little worrying for you – I have done some worrying for you (just so you know). It is ok, rely on a few close people to let them know you are “off-network” and give yourself a little “gift” every now and then. Release yourself, dream, have visions (not with the help of medication legal or illegal, LOL), smile, laugh, and let yourself 5 – 10 minutes of freedom. There are enough of us out here, to support you and send good thoughts and prayers your way, when you need your “gift”. Next time, invite me over for the big strapping man part, this way I can meet you too. I am glad you had a chance for you – it will only help you be a stronger you. Keep your dreams alive.


  6. Joy

    I am holding you and your Captain Snuggles in my thoughts…

  7. Still here, still reading and still hoping. 🙂

  8. I’m still praying for David.

  9. sharon

    That big strapping guy sounds like he’d be an extremely useful nursing aide for the little captain 😉

    Still hoping.


  10. mooney=mc2

    Can you believe that I have never seen The Green Mile? Or Shawshank Redemption? I’d make a terrible dude. lol.

    John Coffey sounds like someone you definitely need right now.
    I am hopeful that things will turn around and you will have an uneventful weekend.
    Blow an “air kiss” at Captain Snuggles for me


  11. I can’t imagine. I am thinking about you and your little guy. When my younger one was in the NICU I remember hearing the “numbers” daily, sometimes every few hours, and it running our lives. Be strong mama!

    And you definitely deserve to get whatever movie you want! My husband loves that movie too.

  12. Still thinking of you constantly, I would send John Coffey if I could.

  13. I’m doing my best to remember you. To pray for your re-membering. For you and David to be put back together again. Remember. I’m praying for you.

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